March 2018
When Plans Don’t Go as Expected
After a few weeks in Wales, it became clear that the move wasn’t working the way we had hoped. Life felt unsettled, routines didn’t fit, and the sense of “home” was elusive.
I won’t lie — it was frustrating. I had hoped for a fresh start, a space where creativity and life could flow more easily. Instead, I was faced with uncertainty again.
But God continued to whisper in the quiet moments. He reminded me that obedience isn’t always about the outcomes we imagine. Sometimes it’s about saying yes to what He asks, even when the results aren’t what we expect.
Returning to London wasn’t a failure. It was part of the journey — a step that allowed me to learn, to trust, and to rely on Him in ways I hadn’t before.
Faith, I realized, is often built in the spaces where life doesn’t go as planned.
April 2018
Returning to London – Letting Go of Expectations
Moving back to London felt both familiar and strange. The streets I knew so well, the routines I had once mastered — everything was a little off. And with that familiarity came the reminder that God’s plans don’t always match mine.
I had to let go of my expectations: the vision of a smooth transition, the hope that everything would line up perfectly, the desire for certainty.
God seemed quiet again, but I trusted that His presence was still there, guiding even when I couldn’t feel it fully. Obedience in this season wasn’t about doing more; it was about trusting Him, listening carefully, and remaining faithful in the small things I could control — writing, creating, praying, and showing up day by day.
Sometimes life feels messy. Sometimes it feels like we’re moving backward before we can move forward. But God’s faithfulness doesn’t depend on our understanding. It only depends on our trust.
Even amid uncertainty, I found a deepening sense of reliance — a reminder that God is shaping both me and my work, even when I cannot see the full path.